CD6 Menopur 150iu D4

I'm starting to get some weird side effects today...

• The typical sore ovaries.. I can definitely feel them growing and I can definitely feel that they are taking up alot more room in there.
• Burning sensation around my ovaries.
• Weird painful pressure when I sit upright, I have to slouch when I sit to re-leave the pressure/pain. 
• Mood swings.. I get irritated with the smallest things..  
• Emotional.. I feel overly sad and wanna cry out of the blue all the time.. things on tv, my dogs being cute, people driving by, facebook statuses.. I want to cry of joy and sadness all at the same time all the time.. I feel lonely and battling all sorts of emotions threw out the day in my head.. it's so draining.  
• I feel brain dead.. my brain feels like I haven't slept in 48 hours but I've been sleeping my regular sleep pattern. I feel like my brain response is delayed and my reflex.. like all day even my husband noticed. My brain is foggy. 
• Horrible horrible headaches and nothing like my usual chronic migraines. This is like deep deep in my brain it aches real bad and nothing I do makes it feel better (ice on my head, all lights off, lay on couch, deep breathing, squeezing my temples..) 

The only drugs I'm allowed to take is Tylenol, I took 1 but it didn't do anything to change the pain. Tylenol is like candy to me since I've been taking it since I'm 6 years old. I find myself bitching and complaining about my headache all day because it's the only thing I can do. My eyes even got really red towards the evening and no relief would work. When I got home from work my husband gave me my shot before he left for work and I laid down on the couch with all the lights off and watched Netflix. I tried sitting in the quiet but it seemed to make it worst, so I put on a documentary on Netflix and put all my focus into watching that and not the pain.. I was sooo tired but couldn't fall asleep, I tried but when I closed my eyes my headache seemed worst.. so I literally watched tv will I couldn't keep my eyes open.. then I dragged my butt to bed, put on my cd "Circle and Bloom" wearing my ear phones and passed right out 5 minutes in. I woke up probably a good 45 minutes later and realized it was still playing in my ears so I threw it on the ground and passed back out. Hubby got home at 7am the next day (works overnights this week/weekend). I vaguely remember him coming home. 



Injection Day 4














The Infertile Mrs.White 

CD5 Menopur 150iu D3

Injection day 3 looked like this. 

Once again I rushed home from work for hubby to inject me before he leaves for work. Today's injection went better then the first 2. I don't know if it's because my brain and body know better what to expect and reacts accordingly or if it's because we were in a rush to inject cause hubby was going to be late I didn't really have time to psych myself out it just kinda all happened quick and before I knew it he was gone and I was on the couch relaxing with my dogs watching Netflix. Half an hour later I def could feel something was going on in my ovaries.. This feeling reminds me that the pain from the injection is worth it because it's working. 

I'm so curious to know how much my follicles grow everyday from each injection and I'm really wondering how many injection days I'll need for this cycle. Iui 1 and 2 were around 16 injection days but with low Gonal-f dosages. Never tried Menopur before let alone 150iu of meds so I'm real curious and lookin forward to our first follow up on Sunday! 

The Infertile but hopeful Mrs.White.  

CD4 Menopur 150iu D2

Day 2 of injections

Left work half an hour early so I can rush home before hubby leaves for work so he can inject me. I'm way too scared of not being able to follow threw. Even when hubby is injecting me everything in my body wants me to just pull away. I don't know why this brand burns so much like during the injection till a good 15 minutes later. 

I would love to say I'm gonna be strong threw this cycle and do it all myself but this won't be the case... Not this time. 

The Infertilr Mrs.White 

CD3 Menopur 150iu D1

This just happened! 150iu Menopur. Omg it BURNT!!! I thought I was going to pass out hubby made me lay down. It stung so much I'm scared I won't be able to do it on my own tomorrow at work. 

This is how my day went...

Alarm went off at 4:00am 

In the shower by 4:05

Hubby filled car with gas and got us coffees while I got ready and took dogs out. 

Out the door driving away by 5:05am 

It was pitch black out the whole way there. 

Got to the clinic at 7:02, it was still dark out. 

Had time to make a washroom break before grabbing a number in the waiting room. I was number 2! 

I was exhausted from lack of sleep so not my most flattering picture but this was me waiting for the Doctor to come.. Waited a good 10 minutes and the darkness of the room made me sleepier and more anxious.  It was 8:10 when we finally saw the Dr.. Makes for a lot of waiting around. 

This was the weather when we got out of the clinic. Grey and gloomy.  This is a pic of the highway leaving Edmonton. It snowed parts of the way home and the highway was slick, icy and saw a lot of cars in the ditch. Made for a stressful drive home luckily hubby was the one driving so I could rest up before going to work. 

Me wearing my new prescribed sun glasses. Ordered them online and they arrived yesterday so got to test them out today :) although it was so grey out only wore them for 5 minutes lol. 

This was me in the car.. Contemplating how im gonna inject myself today during work.. Since I'd be at a restaurant with my client during my injection time period..  Dirty Washroom stall injection didn't sound too appealing especially for day 1 of injecting this new med I haven't used before... 

Turns out I got a really bad migraine at work and asked to leave after 4 hours of work so I worked noon to 4 and went home. I was way too exhausted from my looong morning to make it threw work till 8pm and have to drive home.

Good thing I did because I chickened out when it came to injecting myself.. I got the injection ready and mixed the solution and all that fun stuff by myself.. Then I was holding the injection to my stomach area and couldn't get myself to stab it in!! My hand started to shake and Hubby had to jump to my rescue and inject me. The liquid stung so bad hubby said I turned white and I had to lay on the couch cause I felt light headed. I have a needle phobia and with Gonal-F it didn't really look like a needle and the injection didn't burn and it helped you make sure to inject slowly with the mechanism the pen has... This Menopur is an actual needle needle! (if I'm making any sense..)

Guys I have no idea how I'm gonna inject myself tomorrow :( it burnt/stung so much (post injection) that I'm scared to get it done again. Ughhhh!! 

The Infertile Mrs.White

CD1 Here we go again!

Here we go!!

I've never been so happy to start my period!
This means we are finally on our way to starting our 3rd IUI cycle.
AF started today around noon and I called the Fertility Clinic right away to book my baseline ultrasound for day 3. This means my appointment is Tuesday morning.

I took progesterone pills on December 23rd till January 1st (10 days) in order to give myself a period. I was getting really nervous when it wasn't starting.. I've seriously never been so happy to see red! I feel so useless every month I'm not actively trying to get pregnant.. 3rd time better be a charm! I'm going in this with a positive attitude because this round HAS to work!! My best friend just got her BFP on New Years Eve and how amazing would it be to be pregnant together, it's what we used to talk about when we were kids. This is her 2nd pregnancy, they have been trying for over 8 months. I'm really happy for her and I can't help but feel like maybe it's my time too.. it would be perfect timing.. So I want to stay positive threw the entire process and stress the least possible to give myself the highest chance possible. I'm going in with "this HAS to work" attitude.

Man do I ever love my husband! Sometimes I forget how much he actually listens to my every word. Months ago I told him about the Cycle and Bloom CD's and how I've read about them on couple blogs and was really curious about it. That night he downloaded a small preview of the CD and we listened to it in bed. It was so relaxing and I think he enjoyed it too. Weeks went by and we kind of forgot about it. To my surprise, yesterday he actually bought the CD online and surprised me with it in bed. He knew I was nervous about my period not starting right away and he wanted me to relax. Oddly enough my period started today. It was probably not by chance but I'll take it as a little sign of faith. Starting my cycle today means my baseline ultrasound is on day 3 witch brings us to Tuesday witch is perfect because that's the only day of the week where I only start work at noon-8pm. It will be an extremely long day but at least I wont have to stress about rushing to the appointment, then to the pharmacy to pick up the injections then drive another 2 hours to get to work. We usually try to get to the clinic for 7am and we usually make it to the pharmacy by 9am.  If my follow up appointment is 5 days later like it has been for the other 2 IUI it will bring us to Sunday witch is great because this means I don't work and we will be able to go shop around.. I've been real eager to go to IKEA and get a couple storage items.

Going to bed now, looking forward to my Cycle and Bloom Cycle day 1!

The Infertile Mrs.White

Horoscope

Interesting.... 

The Infertile Mrs.White

Happy New Years 2014!

Happy New Years everyone! Another year gone.. 2013 was a very eventful year but still did not end the year with a baby bump or a baby in my arms. 2014 seems more promising already with more aggressive injections and we are giving it our all (again). 2013 was all about testing out dosages.. Getting to know how my body reacts, getting a bunch of tests done.. I'm trying really hard to be hopefull for this coming year. So here's to another year, a fresh start (once again) and to never giving up no matter what your faced with.