CD11 Follow Up #2

Follow Up Bloodwork & Ultrasound #2

CD10 Menopur 150iu D8

I still have a bruise on my arm from my bloodwork on Sunday morning. The nurse really moved the needle around.. It sure wasn't a pleasent blood drawn experience. 

On a better note last nights injection went alright.. I worked till late so I got a co-worker to do it for me. I lost a bit of injection fluid in the process and when she was done I looked down and for some weird reason the liquid was coming out from the injection spot so I wiped it then I started to bleed. So weird and since I wasn't looking I have no idea if she gave me the injection properly but at this point it's too late and I'm just happy it's over. The liquid really stung when it was being injected and I needed to sit down for a good 5 mins after. 

Tomorrow is my follow up #2, really hoping it goes well. 

The Infertile Mrs.White 

CD9 Menopur 150iu D7

Injection Day 7

Today's injection was the best one so far... hubby did a great job.. I don't know if it's because he tried out a new area on my stomach (lower then usual).. the injection went right in, did not hit anything although once the injection liquid started being injected it still stung/burned really bad like all the other times. The injection spot bled after but I did not have my usual pain (burning for a good 20 minutes after the injection). This time I got the usual burn sensation for about 2 minutes then I was good to go. 

Tomorrow I work till an hour and a half past my injection time, hopefully I can get someone to inject me because I'm still too scared to inject myself (needle phobia problem). Gonal-F I had no problem injecting myself but it looked like a "pen" and not an actual needle also the "pen" had a mechanism inside that let the liquid come out at an even pace where as the Menopur the flow all depends on the person injecting it.. bah we shall see what happens tomorrow. 

The Infertile Mrs.White

CD8 Ultrasound pics from FollowUp apt.

The following are pictures I was able to snag (take pics of).. after our ultrasound, I get dressed then go to the nurses corner and they give us info on when to come back and all that fun stuff.. this time since it's Sunday the Pharmacy where we get the meds from are closed so the clinic keeps some supplies in stock for the people like us who live outside of town. The nurse had to go and get the meds I needed, during this time.. my file was just sitting there wide open for all to see (including myself haha).. So I took quick pics of the ultrasound pics and also took a pic of my chart haha but can't post, there was my personal address and info stuff but it's pretty great I was able to haha.. I was being all sneaky my husband was laughing at me because every time I'd hear a noise or steps I'd jump and pretend like I wasn't snooping threw my large file haha. 

This is my lining.. 0.685

My winner so far... a whooping 11!!! (Right Ovary)

Two smaller ones.. 8.2 & 7.8 (Right Ovary)

8.8 .. (Left Ovary)

9.4 ..  (Left ovary)

The Infertile Mrs.White

CD8 :Follow Up #1

Follow Up Blood Work & Ultrasound #1

CD8

Menopur 150iu D6

E2: 361

Lining: 0.685cm 

Right Ovary: 11 / 8.2 / 9.4 / 6.8

Left Ovary:  9 / 8.4  / 8.7

Wahoo!! We got an 11.. altho I really thought I'd see a 14, wishful thinking :P

We were the before last clients at the clinic and they were crazy busy... We waited around in the waiting room for over 2 hours!!! That's what happens when we don't get there ridiculously early in the am to grab a number before everyone else and wait an hour before the clinic even opens.. Gotta love first come first serve system. Hubby got home from work at 7:30am this morning so we weren't able to leave at our usual 6:40-7am to get there on time. (weekend clinic hours) On top of it, the clinic was WAY busier then it usually is. We were so tired from being up so early and hubby from not sleeping at all since his overnight shift... and the combination of waiting around in a waiting room for so long made us cranky mixed with comedians haha! We made a couple funny videos while we were waiting in this little room for the ultrasound room to be available. Lack of sleep + lack of patience = crazy us!

Here this was me being silly.. Hubby wanted to take a picture and I was doing the thumps up, then I was like wait a minute, today sucks, we are exhausted and it's not even noon yet! haha so I was in the midst of doing thumbs down :P 

Not to mention I was in ALOT of pain at this point.. sitting for over 2 hours made my ovaries really sore and I wanted to get this over with.. I was soooo curious to see what size they were since I was in so much pain I wanted answers that justified how I was feeling.. 

We waited a good 20 minutes in this little room and this was me not too empressed. I over heard them talk about a lady who needed a last minute IUI performed, apparently there was a mix up somewhere and well I got bumped and had to wait even longer sitting in the little room naked under a white bed sheet. Not pleased at all.   SUCKS!

From this minute on, I made hubby promise to never be on time or late again.. If we aren't very early then we don't get seen for hours! Like week days clinic opens at 7:45 and we usually get there at 6:45 to wait in line at the elevator for it to unlock and let us up at 7:15 to then wait some more for the receptionist to open her area at 7:45 for the numbers to then line up and we go in to check in with her by order of first come first serve with the number we grabbed on the way in. Then only around 8am do they actually start calling in the patients to be seen and get blood work done. This is what I mean by LOOONG mornings.. and if your not one of those people who are between numbers 1 and 6 you'll be waiting for ages! There must have been over 30 women today and we were the before last one! So imagine how long we waited around for... The worst part is on weekends we need to get blood work done at the hospital since the clinic blood lab is closed, the hospital blood lab opens at 9 then we have to rush to the clinic. We got to the blood lab at 9:30am.. got my blood drawn right away then rushed to the clinic and the waiting room was packed! We couldn't believe it.. we weren't even that late!!! Never again I tell ya, I told husband I rather go alone then be late again.. the wait was that bad.

The only good part about today was that we got the Dr we liked! She is so sweet, patient, understanding, explains everything about what she is doing during the ultrasound and she was aware my husband was making a video of the screen so she really went into details and explained the measurements and so on. It was a really great experience, she sure was able to turn a shitty morning into a better afternoon :) I really have to work on getting my video's up and running.. This one is so worth sharing, we really love this Dr! 

Mileage we put on my car from home to the Edmonton Clinic, to Starbucks to home.

The "Glad to be home" Infertile Mrs.White

Young kids in fertility clinic waiting room

I'm sitting at the clinic, the waitin room is full, I've never seen it that busy at one time before. Not to metion today people feel the need to bring their kids in the waiting room. A little girl probably around 5 years old just being really loud and when she finally leaves a dad brings in his really happy baby who's really talkative (baby gibberish) I can't look at them.. I'm sitting here in so much pain, sitting, standing, laying down the pain doesn't go away.. I understand why people bring their kids with them but at the same time weren't they in our shoes at some point too?? And aren't they trying again if their here again?? Don't they remember how shitty it feels to sit there praying for a miracle... Ugh. 

Hubby got home from work around 7:30 made me so nervous, I've been up since 5:20am I've showered, shaved, made a lunch for the day, took the dogs out twice, went to get gas and picked up coffee and breakfast for hubby so all he had to do was change and out the door. We usually LEAVE the house at 6:45 because we like to be early and give time incase the roads are bad. I drove because hubby needed to rest up a bit. 

We got to the hospital at 9:30 rushed for a washroom break then blood work in the main part of the hospital then walked to the fertility clinic building rushing all morning to arrive to a PACKED waiting room... I have a feeling the wait will be minimum an hour and a half... Now I remember why we always arrive here so early.. Avoid all the people and looong wait. 

The irritated Mrs.White 

CD7 Monopur 150iu D5

5 days worth of injections.. I wonder how much more I'll need..

I'm really happy to be where I am now. To have a chance at yet another IUI and to have such an amazing supportive husband. 

BUT... I'm exhausted, I think I forgot how draining the really early drive to Edmonton Clinic is.. How long my days end up, how painful the injections are, how shitty the side effects are, how moody and emotional I get.

I forgot how much I pray, hope and try and remind myself daily why I'm doing this.

It's so hard going threw this part of the journey and staying strong when nothing is certain, you work your ass off,  you go on crazy diets and food restrictions, you stop drinking alcohol, you stop drinking caffeine.. Your in pain for weeks yet I still have nothing to show for it (5 cycles of clomid and now 3 iui's). We dish out so much money, so much time & energy and get so emotionally drained. I wish I could fast forward threw this part to two weeks from now. 

I'm really not enjoying these new injections and hopefully tomorrow I'll hear what I want to hear.. that my ovaries grew exactly to where they wanted them to be (haha, I can only dream) but at least that way it would justify all the pain I'm feeling.. I seriously feel like someone blew up my ovaries, not 5 days worth of injection but like they just blew up instantly. 

I feel miserable today. I've had a horrible horrible headache again all day and I mean ALL DAY. There is seriously nothing I can do to lower the pain or make it go away completely. I took a tylenol but it didn't make a dent. I'm at the point where slamming my head in the wall looks like a good idea :( My head has been boiling all day and so have my ovaries.. They are so warm to the touch and I can definitely feel them working.  I'm so hormonal today it's insane! Good thing today is my day off work and a sunny Saturday at that! 

My injection did not go so good today. I got it all ready and hubby injected it, OMG did it ever kill from the minute he pieced my skin to a good 15 minutes later. He must have hit something on the way in and when the injection liquid started going in my entire body was yelling, I did not want to react or yell out loud because I did not want hubby to panic and either yank it out or push the liquid in quicker so I just stood there, closed my eyes and bit hard on my lip hoping I wouldn't pass out. When he said "done" I was like holy hell that hurt, I was like you hit something and it killed, he admitted he felt the needle hit something.. ugh makes me weak in the knees. I don't have a bruise but the injection area is definitely really sore to the touch.

My emotions today are all over the place. I've spent almost all day alone since hubby slept in late since he got home from work at 7 this morning and then he went to the gym and got ready for work (cooked food for his lunch, shower and so on) so I didn't really get to actually see him much. While he was sleeping I went to the grocery store and got myself some more groceries.. --- I don't think I've mentioned it yet but I'm going 100% gluten-free for the month of January. So far so good and I'm really enjoying this challenge. There are alot of gluten-free foods in grocery stores now a days so it makes it alot easier to stick to this plan. I'm not doing it to loose weight although that would be a great bonus.. I'm doing this more as a personal challenge.. I want to test my will power and challenge myself in cooking fun healthy meals. I fell off the wagon mid November and all of December I eat horrible and I was fully aware of it, I didn't care and I was going threw a phase where I was down and depressed and hated being away from family and friends over the holidays and the weeks leading to the holidays and eat my feelings I guess... So January I am taking control again. I did not want to go all dramatic and do sugar-free and dairy-free because that would just be so un-realistic for me at this point.. I've tried it a couple months ago and I failed couple weeks in.. Gluten-free is a good start for me and it is motivating the more days go by that I haven't cheated. I can still have my sweets (as long as their gluten-free) and that makes me happy haha. I'm about 95% dairy-free but that's not really by choice.. I'm lactose intolorent. --- When I got home, put everything away and did some crafts. I recently got alot of new Stampin' Up stuff (I'm a demonstrator) so I've been trying to grow my supplies and I haven't had the chance to play with them yet so all week I had planned that today (Saturday) would be reserved to creating and I had planned to be very productive and get all the things I wanted to get done, done. I was fine for about an hour then my head started hurting alot more and I was having trouble focusing on my projects. I was getting really impatient and my ovaries were starting to really ache again. They have been achy all day on and off. I took a break, made myself some food and went back at it.. I've been trying to make tutorial videos I can put on youtube (never done that before..) but they weren't working out, I was loosing focus, I was so out of it and everything took longer then it usually would so I just gave up... hubby gave me my injection around 5:45 and then I had to lay down on the couch because it hurt so bad, then about 20 minutes later I wasn't able to sit upright on the couch, my ovaries were killing me and I could definitely feel that the injection was already hard at work.. so I laid down and watched Netflix again and now I'm mad because today was supposed to be a productive day, it was my only day off work where I got to be home all day and barely got what I wanted to get done, done. Bahh..

Tomorrow is our first follow up ultrasound and blood work for this cycle. I can't wait to know how big my follicles are because I can definitely feel them! Really hoping we don't need more then 2 more days of Menopur.. (probably isn't the case) and I'm going to have to start my Progesterone injections sometime soon I take it. He did not mention anything about that at our baseline ultrasound.. and my Dr will not be in the office tomorrow so hoping it's marked clearly in my file.. I've never done the progesterone injections before so hoping this is where we went wrong the first 2 times.. Nervous and excited for tomorrow

Off I go to listen to my circle and bloom Cd and catch some ZZZZzZzzz.

The Infertile Hormonal Mrs.White